Loneliness.

You know those times you feel so alone you just cannot keep on? Well, that is my life. I do not knok why, yet I still feel alone whenever or wherever I am. I do not know how, but even when I am surrounded with people I feel even more alone. I do not know when all this started, but it feels it has been part of me all my life. As with everything in my life I got used to it. Let me explain myself, this sensation is similar to that one of people in space, however I am on Earth. I have friends though, but they just seem absent, and everyone else just don't give a damn about me, and neither do I, so I am virtually surrounded with ghost-friends and invisible people, and only a buch of people kinda undertsand it. In the end you realise how good you were at the beginning, and how bad you are now, although you cannot get to te beginning anymore. I have tried to understand what happended in the path, what occurred in my way here so I feel, or maybe I am lonely. Once I somehow saw what happened, I find it impossible to be the one I once was, it seems too difficult or it involves too much effort, and simply it isn't worth it, so instead I just stay where I am.
Nonetheless, not all of this is bad, as always eveything has a bright side, and this time it is that you have a massive ammount of time to think about yourself, who you want to be and how to achieve it. Therefore you can become a better person in the future, more mature and all that, but honestly, I'd rather be happy and have an unplanned life to be lonely as I am. 
There is a perfect song for this situation, it describes all of this so well that it makes me just speechless, ASTRONAUT - Simple Plan. "Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot".
Well, I cannot find any solution to this, I only hope it ends with time, because it is so depressing to feel so alone so often. Maybe the solution would be to find a partner, a girlfriend, but you know what, they are just as useless as crying, I have tried, and that my dear blog is another story.
To conclude, lonleliness is probably one of the worst sensations in the world, however it also has a good side, but it all depends on which side you want to stay, and I  have chosen to live in the worst of all, but with a fake smile overall.
Thanks for being here dear blog.