Sadly.

I just tried to have it all, but instead I lost each thing I achieved while trying to get the rest. What do I mean with this? It is said here "La avaricia rompe el saco", and it is so true, sadly. Whenever your goal is to own everything, to have everyone under your thumb, to take control of all, think it twice. Eventually you will lose it all, and that is for sure. It is difficult to assimilate that you cannot have everything, because most of us are very ambitious. However, we need to understand that we have to be happy with what we have, and perhaps try to get something else and add it to our collection, but never try to get it all. It always happens to me, I am never happy whith what I have, and in the mayority of the cases I try to start to gain and succed on things, on new things, while I have not even acomplished my actual goals. Consequently I always lose all, sadly. I have tried, I have tried so hard to avoid wanting it all, but it is impossible. I guess I will have to live my entire life without achieving anything completely, but everything partially.
Nevertheless, that is somehow good isn't it? I mean, you may not have all what you want, and you might not have complete things nethier, but at least you have small pieces of each cake, and that is enough to survive. But it is never enough, and I look for more pieces of the cake, and destroy the ones I already had... It is so fuc€&ng depressing, sadly. As with every mistake in my life, I will have to learn to live with it, wich isn't so hard, because all of it are unfinished mistakes, and uncompleted goals.
Sadly all is sad. None of these things have a good side, each side which seems to be positive turns up to be worse than the one before. Everything in here if geeting used to it, just get used to be a failure, and your own existance will become less painful, since you know your next step will be the same or worse than the one before, sadly. 
Thanks for being here dear blog.